Hi everyone! And welcome back to my personal blog! I would like to thank you all for sticking up with me this last year. It has been a crazy year with my HRM study and internship, a new study ^^, a new kitty cat (all about this later in an other blog I will post over a few days), and this year I became an aunt for the first time!!
Looking back at the last few blogs I posted in November 2018, I feel the desire and energy again to write new blogs. I have to be honest, a few months back during my internship for HRM, I didn’t felt like myself anymore. It felt like I wasn’t the best version of myself and it really kept me busy ‘why’. Why did I felt this negative about myself? Why do I feel so passionless?… As far as I can tell now, I had the feeling like I wasn’t giving something back to the world, something that is important for me.
During this period, I was looking for a way to do something that would feel fulfilling to me. I was looking back at every decision I made, why I choose a certain field of study (first event organisation and then HR). What are the things I like about events or HR, and what not? I also written down all my hobbies, passions, stuff that I love and things that gives me energy. But also stuff that drains me from energy. It was really a self-developing session that gave me answer about myself, reasons why I do certain thing and why I felt so disconnected to myself and the work I did during my internship.
It was like I was searching in my past to find the answers for the future. Who do I want to be, what sort of jobs do I love and what do I want to do in the future? In what sort of job can I see myself and be happy too? Those are very interesting, but also extremely hard questions to ask.
I have accepted that I don’t have a passion for HR. And for me, working with passion is a must for living! So I had to look for something else that I could do with passion. I didn’t care anymore for status or level of college degrees. That’s why I found the courage to start a home study for pedagogy/ child care! next to my HRM study and I am loving every bit of it! I already have finished three of the seven exams and in June I will start with my internship at a daycare for two days a week in my hometown. But I have to admit… That I have underestimated the workload of doing double studies with a different planning schedule. But I sure I’ll manage! 😛
Okay that’s it for now!
Thank you for reading my blogs, and hopefully see you next time!